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Tang Chingseng

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hello all.

I have heard there are some misconceptions and rumours about my sudden departure from CD and Sl in general. I want to clear things up for the ones who are interested. I admit, I didn't handle things as I should have but maybe you will understand my behavior once you have read this;
Some of you know that, until many years ago I suffered from a severe anxiety disorder. Imagine just sitting at home and suddenly you feel extremely nervous without any logical reason, all the muscles in your body tense up to the point that they start to hurt really bad, you have difficulties breathing and combined with pain everywhere is pure hell. The only thing you can do is wait till it passes and hope you don't die before that. That's what was wrong with me. I had to take medicines everyday ( Efexor) and it helped, the attacks disappeared slowly until I didn't get them anymore.
Lately, when I was in CD roleplaying, I had so many people pulling on me ( for rp scenes or OOC faction issues), that I couldn't feel any freedom anymore with what I wanted to do ( roleplaying ), I was swamped with messages and had to deal with a lot of OOC drama in the faction I was lead of  And it didn't stop, it got worse and worse to the point that I was reluctant to log in. And on top of that the anxiety attacks came back again after years of being free of them, they flared up every time I logged into SL. So I decided to take a little break of roleplaying but still, the IM avalanche didn't stop. In a stupid brainfart I then decided to change my account name, hoping that would stop people calling me. Of course it didn't, I was still in some groups so my hiding attempt didn't work at all. It's no excuse but I was so desperate from my anxiety attacks that I had no idea what I was doing anymore, besides that I started to get some seriously awful and hostile IM's from CD rp-ers.. I am the first one to admit that I handled all this totally wrong, I only ask for a bit of understanding. I am not sure when I'll be back in Laveau but at this moment I think it's best to wait for a while until my brain is at ease again. I do miss rp-ing with you guys...

Ming

November 3, 2023 at 11:51 pm
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