About J. Gabel

𝓝𝓪𝓶𝓮: Jeffrey Lee Gabel 𝓐𝓰𝓮: 19-25 𝓢𝓲𝓰𝓷: Gemini   𝓢𝓮𝔁𝓾𝓪𝓵 𝓞𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷: Bisexual   𝓗𝓮𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽: 6’0 𝓗𝓪𝓲𝓻: Dark Blonde 𝓔𝔂𝓮𝓼: Blue   𝓕𝓪𝓶𝓲𝓵𝔂: not close/unknown whereabouts (alive) 𝓙𝓸𝓫: anything illegal   Smokes? Yes ☑ Drinks? Yes ☑ Drugs? Not consistently Can impregnate? Yes ☑   Attended the Military? Yes ☑ Notes regarding the Military:    was discharged due to incompetence after four years served; was placed 6 months prior into Special Forces but then a week later was considered inept due to depleted behavior and alcohol abuse i.e smuggling vodka into the barracks. Was, 2 months before being discharged from Special Forces, considered for a particular “role” as Chief and underwent special “curricular” in order to achieve said role. However, approximately three years later had been let out on honorable discharge to return back to the life of a civilian.   Species: Human   Though Jeff’s story is unknown to some, it isn’t unknown to him. Jeffrey is a man that prefers to keep most things about himself private and to himself and though it may not take much for one to pry him open for answers regarding his private life, he will otherwise shut that out and in turn weave lies that may or may not make him seem “more interesting” to someone.  This will include his birthplace, his name and often than not, even his age. It would possibly come as no surprise that the 19 year old you’re speaking to (in character of course) may as well be a 33 year old. On the other hand, he  exhibits signs of frustration easily and can appear “intimidating” behind closed doors too. So says a few. Judging from his looks, on the outside, he’s a passably passive individual whose lanky and worn forward bolder-stance makes him that “awkward introvert” most would assume.    Coming from a fairly religious family, here is a man in whom he didn't care much for attending the regular Sunday church services with his Father or Mother in his early years and would have much rather spent that time obsessing over his toy box. Later, he would grow to become that man that would abuse the weekends or weekdays even; spending the day away at local clubs or bars, people watching and sometimes stealing a dance or two on the floor with someone who catches his eye among the crowd.   He loves to dance, but chances are, he’d prefer the one who prefers to do the most dancing… it’s just “physics”, he says. Standing just under six-feet; this awkward introvert hides behind the brim of his thick aviator glasses (that of which he will sometimes avoid wearing) and the irritating breeze of dark blond hair that falls uncomfortably just over the arc of his brows at times. With a gentle and persuasive tone of voice, Jeffrey shows timidness and courtesy wherever and whenever accessible, i.e; opening doors for strangers, paying for a strangers drink, offering a stranger a ride from work, helping the new neighbors carry in their boxes or helping when feasible with a number of different things be it illegal or otherwise.   Jeffrey has the nature of a geek for the things that he loves or has explored the depths of and will talk endlessly about them but then again there are things that he has seen and or shown interest in that he also knows little to  nothing about but doesn’t mean that he’s not enjoyed learning about those while the small time he’s learned them had lasted.    Also, this invites others to discuss the things that they enjoy when in times that he has nothing to speak on regarding the things that he enjoys.    More often than not, Jeffrey has expressed ‘solitude’ to those in whom he’s been around, no matter the situation of which he wasn’t actually ‘alone’. This situation derives from the issue regarding the fact that his most intimate fear is:    Autophobia, or monophobia;  This is the fear of being alone or lonely. Being alone, even in a usually comforting place like home, can result in severe anxiety for people with this condition. In other words, he’s likely eyeing you right now in hopes that you lose interest in counting the seconds that might or might not have been wasted between you both. Jeffrey’s issues of control and even self control stem from the lack of control that he has had as a child. His means to have hoped to see his parents not divorce, or the problems even as seeing his Father walk out of his life and seeing his Mother fall apart by becoming a drug addict not shortly after his younger sibling was born. Having watched the fighting, and hearing the arguing, these things were  never something he favored and if he could rewind time he would have controlled every outlet and situation to make things more deserving.   Now that he is older, he treats those he becomes close around with less respect than what he has for himself which could pass him off as being selfish when in reality, the only ‘selfish’ thing about Jeffrey is that he wants that person for himself. This creates a possessive and obsessive being; self claiming those he comes to favor and wishes to control in every way possible in order to not have some sort of repeat from his past. Aside from all of this, he loves deeper than the sea, and would do almost anything for his significant other. Even if it consists of self damage or homicide. ...   Jeffrey is also far from being the Dominant stereotype, although he’s very dominant in the bedroom doesn’t make him all too dominant in personality. His outward portrayal prohibits this as a fact; the all too humble neighbor with a craving for doing whatever it takes to keep another’s company; including bottoming sexually. Whatever it may be. However, with Jeffrey, this could also be a form of manipulation even with this being a trait of sorts… his wants and needs go hand-in-hand. Jeffrey sits on the fence with each leg dangling off from either side, as far as what anyone would realize is that just because he would do these things for someone doesn’t mean that once he gets what he wants that he would do it again. The dream that Jeffrey wants to acquire is complete control, whereas, the need lies within the heart of what he wants which is for someone to also want this as well; to be controlled. Even in ways worshipped.    Over the years, he’s used multiple “surrogates” to pose for the things that he wants: the endless affection, love, control, body worshipping, dressed or undressed, the list goes on. To make matters worse is the fact that no matter what the surrogate had been it wasn’t enough for him, and he deems that something real wouldn’t be either. Thus, the cycle goes on and on.   When it is that Jeffrey gets into a relationship of any kind, he’ll bend as far as what his mind and body can possibly bend without breaking but once he sees enough is enough, he’ll immediately cut ties without remorse and use whatever reminders he’s had “emotionally” from those beings as mementos that’ll carry on with him internally as well as materialistically. Jeffrey despises the idea of “waste”, and collects memories as prizes of what he’s figuratively gained from losing them despite it being that he had lost them deliberately by cutting such ties. These collections bleed into future relationships and are discussed as ‘past relationships’ that had gone wrong, even with what the truth could be is that the death of such a relationship was well seasoned with passionate agony that still lives on inside of him and within the palms of his hands. There is no letting go of those that he had known and in a way, Jeffrey believes that whether or not those people were killed (or just dumped off at the nearest corner somewhere) that they are still very much alive in ways that his current relationship(s) aren’t…. What you hold as a character will add to his story in ways that his history couldn’t have. And who knows, perhaps by luck, you’ll outlive him too.    BUT… (there is always a but) That is only if you want to... As a side note; Jeffrey is currently obsessing over the human mind and firmly now believes that it could be what makes “humanity” immortal. How does one evolve, after all? Is there truly a God to be accountable for? Is Evolution fact? Suppose the truth is that this obsession will lead him and anyone he associates with down a dark and -theoretical- path where mentality will be tested thoroughly.    With or without love.   Just, well… the heart won’t go to waste at least.