The ongoing OOC hate has been really draining me lately. I can't understand why some people feel the need to prevent others from enjoying themselves on an RP sim. It's okay if you don't like me—I probably wouldn't like you either, but honestly, I haven't cared enough to get to know you. The key difference between us is that I behave like an adult. Instead of complaining to staff about everything you do, I prefer to avoid you entirely. I genuinely don't care what you do, your plans, or who you RP with. It's none of my concern, and frankly, I'm not paying enough attention to you to have anything to complain about. That's why it baffles me how much you seem to know about everything I do.
You've accused me of being a powergamer, criticized the length of my posts, and said you don't care to read them. You've complained about the cars I drive, the jewelry I wear, the slang I use, the groups I join, the people I hang out with, even the sound-making attachments I wear, and the people I roleplay with. It's worth noting that most of you, I've never even roleplayed with or spoken to, let alone had any disagreement that could justify all this negativity. I'm aware that some of this is racially motivated, and the rest is likely pure jealousy.
At this point, I feel suffocated. Every move I make is scrutinized and controlled to make YOU feel comfortable sharing the space with me. But the truth seems to be that you don't want me here at all. And that's fine. I never aimed to fight with any of you. I've been nothing but kind to everyone, but going forward, that's going to change. Clearly, my kindness isn't appreciated. So, from now on, if I start acting out and disrespecting you, remember, you pushed me to this point. I am the monster that you've created!