4/29/2012

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PbeIv39s04s&feature=endscreen&NR=1

I sit here writing this, with a bottle of Jack next to me, and a cold realization running through my veins. To lose so much over the course of time causes someone to lose touch with who they really are. My Brother, Caris even if she was a Reject she was a good kid who just needed help, Miho, another lost kid in the sea of Hathian who I just couldn't help no mater how I tried, MacBain a friend and sort of a mentor, Hita who was lost to us, only to be found and lost again, and then the hardest one in a long time Baden Daines.

Baden was by far my bestfriend, the closest thing I have had to a brother in a very long time, we always had each others backs and would pull each other from the fire on so many accounts. I remember when he first met Hita, during that string of rapes at the collage, Hita was a broken beautiful little thing, and Daines and I tried to help her. He slowly formed a relationship from that point, that blossomed into a rocky at times relationship that I was there to help him through the hardest of times. There was a time when we shared everything with each other the good, the bad.

Some were down the line after the disappearance of both Hita, and his son, he became more of a recluse, we still talked but not like how we used to, I kept secrets from you trying to protect you, We were brothers we needed to protect eachother, and I always had your back. While I have done stuff that I'm not proud of, you always forgave me, I just can't forgive my self for not being there for yah brother when it counted. The fact that you took your own life over something like this, I don't blame you, but I wish you had just called me, I could of helped but you were stubborn as always, Hita always clouding your judgement.

I love yah Baden you were family, and nothing will ever be the same with out yah around, I'm not religious in anyway but if god took you, he couldn't of taken a better person. RIP and may you truly find happiness were you find your self.

Your Brother, in life and death
-Sora Senizen