Lieb Liza und Harriet,

I often hope it is well where you are, though I do not know where you are. Ich verfehle Sie. I have thought, many times, of writing to you, but what good would it be, I ask myself, since I will never have the answers I need. But then someone came along and I don't need those questions answered anymore, because I found a new question, and she answered it in a way I was unsure I could believe. Harriet, meine liebe, I am getting married again. Ich vergesse sie nicht.

Fyrja sometimes looks just like you, meine liebe. Sometimes when the light hits her hair just so...but she's not you. She's very different. Not better, Harriet, just different. You understand that, right? I hope you understand that. Es ist jetzt unterschiedlich.

My temper is worse since we last saw each other. Liza, you were wrong, I wasn't the worst papa in the world. But now I think I am, haha! Only because I get so easily frustrated. I pulled out my eye in frustration from being blind. It wasn't heroic, like Odin, it was just stupid. I have regained sight in my other eye though, partially. I went blind when I got hit with a baseball bat, or ..something. I don't remember very clearly. Ich starb fast. You know how my head is vulnerable, since the wars, Harriet. There is a war here too, but it's between gangs. I think ours will win. I am always on the right side. Die klinge und das schild, miene liebe. Die klinge und das schild.

I am still enjoying my photography with that camera you gave me for my birthday that year, Liza. There are many things to take pictures of in Louisiana. I have a lot of a girl named Valena. I think you two would be friends. Maybe one day you will. Soon, I hope. Do you have friends where you are? I don't have many here. It's okay though, we all know I was never really a social guy.

I don't have much more to say, I don't think. Besides, I am waiting for the girl with the purple hair to show up for work.

Don't forget me, meine liebe und mein kleines mädchen.

Mit liebe,
Papa/Nikolai

P.S. Alles gute zum geburtstag, Harriet.