15.06:

I never wrote a thing... I don't even think I can write any well. But, who can I talk to, who would understand how I feel? I could talk to my brothers or my father for sure, but they all don't even know yet... I can't even reach them. So you are the one who is my first ear, even tho you are just paper in leather.

I'm Midori you see... I'm 14 years old and as long as I can remember I lived in Hathian together with my Mama Mary. And how much has the world changed today? How many hours did I wish I was just dreaming? But it is no dream... it is true... my Mama died. They let mit into that room where they keep the corpses and showed me... My Mama is dead and she will never come back. What do you do in such a situation, what do you do, when you suddenly feel so alone.

I never really appreciated her I think... she always bought my brother so much more stuff, she always let me do all the housework, I thought she wouldn't love me, but now that she is gone I know, I remember her going out to fight the man that hurt me. I remember her hugging me smiling to me... shouting at women who insulted me... Worrying for me....

That was my Mama, she cared for us even when my Papa was gone. Many didn't appreciate who she was, but she was good, raised me and my brothers, loved us. And now she is gone... I am crying... sitting here in this church and crying... but it does not help nothing can bring her back. I feel helpless and alone... I don't know what I shall do.... Mama, why did you leave me already? There was so much I still wanted to show you and now I don't know what I shall do.

And you didn't even get to see Cory again... I know it hurt you much that you couldn't see him... but... why did you need to die? We would have helped you through this.... it is over now... now Cory will never get to see what a good mother you were.....

I can't stop crying... have to stop writing...