I got ice in my veins, blood in my eyes
Hate in my heart, love in my mind
I seen nights full of pain, days of the same
You keep the sunshine, save me the rain
It hurts, but I never show this pain you'll never know
If only you could see just how lonely and how cold
And frostbit I've become, my back's against the wall
When push come to shove, I just stand up and scream "Fuck 'em all"
Man, it feels like these walls are closing in
This roof is caving in, up its time to razor-thin

God, how I need fucking sleep, how long did I sleep for.. one hour, two, my mind seems to never stop,that same damn dream seemed to allways seems to wake me up in a pool of sweat, didn't help that I know have her added to my thoughts why cant I stop was it because she made me feel normal??, god she really was a like a drug, this pull to have her, be around her, is consuming me, eating away at ME, Is she hijacking my brain?? I should eat, am I going insane?? Lack of sleep?? God how the words I wrote in my last entry hit home, Why Cant I just fucking play my own stuff, Because your a fucking faggot, dumbass, and cant get your ass off the couch and man up thats why! .. (1hour later) So, should I feel bad, for setting up the fake buisness, to plan to take what's not mine, God, it would be so easy, but why should I care, no one gives a shit about me no one would blink a eye to do it to him, aint like im really hurting anyone really, it was only cash, there credit could be fixed, god am I monster for even trying to convince my self this is fine...?? Tho... this aint the first thing you have done wrong, and god the bills ..

Cell phone-55.00
Rent-350.00
Mastercard-1,200
Anger Mangement Classes loan - how much do i still owe on that fuck.. cant remember i should drink more coffee.
College enrollment-- ???? didnt they say something about ..

Fuck this im doing it.. dont rethink your self just hit enter,, dont be a pussy just turn around and push enter on your computer.. God, even when im writing this.. she still comes to the front of my mind FUCK ME!