things can't get any worse they do. Always. My

sister Victoria has issues. I know she does, half

the time when I see her she is a girl named Fiona. I

think something happened when she was younger and

she split herself in half just to keep stuff blocked

out. I'm pretty sure that's what happened. I can't

say for sure, I haven't gotten to talk to her in

full.

After talking to Fiona for a long while today I get

a text. God you fucking asshole! You can't come say

it in person? Friends? Fuck friends....I hate you!

You put me through all this shit, get me ready to

love you, you say. Fuck you.

I went through fucking hell for you! I spent forever

in jail so that I could be there with you. You

fucking owe me bastard. How are you ever going to

repay me? I don't think that you ever could, not

that I want anything you have anymore!

I gave everything to you! I bent over backwards, did

what you wanted and put up with your asshole self

when I didn't have to do any of that. I would have

rather of been with Treaty. At least after he scared

me I'd still have my heart. Look at this, you've

made me voilate my virgin journal pages with curse

words.....

*There was another paragraph that had been marked

over heavily with scribbles from a pen.*

So there is Noni, she is my best and only

girlfriend. Girls fucking suck, they are all drama

queens but not Noni. She's sweet and reserved....I'm

all about the juicy man parts. She has a man and he

wants me to help him with Noni's "fantasy" which I

don't actually think is hers. I think it's all him,

some days I want to punch him in the face, I know

nothing about fighting either.

Anyway, he wants me to do things with Noni, well I

told him I'd have to think about it. Well after

tonight I texted Noni and she tried to call me back.

I wouldn't talk to her so I just texted. He wants me

to be a sub under his thumb. But I'm supposed to be

helping with Noni, that doesn't make much sense. Not

that I want to get into any sub, dom messes right

now. Not after what happened.

I've done enough for someone, guess what I got in

return? You see it, my stupid scribbles in a

notebook. FML.....

Is it too much to ask for a small piece of normal?

I've never had that, never had anyone to love me for

me. Just when I thought someone started to they

pushed me away because they found a sweet girl.

Yes people say money leads to happiness, no it

doesn't. It leads to heart break and lies. Thanks

Daddy, yeah I might be your little girl but it's

because I was your only little girl. If you have

that much money why the hell couldn't you take us

both? Victoria and I?

*More scribbles on the paper covering large sections

of the paper.*