[This is Ais' blog from over at http://thecrackden.com/community/blogs/aislingmilgrom]

[Unless you want, I won't post over any of the old blogs, but you can always use the linkage up there to read them]

Ages and ages.

It's been an age and a half since I last updated this. Things have been crazy and weird and just...christ, I don't even know.

So much has happened and changed.

Everything with Ellis is done and I'm very, very responsible for it, I think. I don't know. Everyone says I'm not, but...I am.

I've had a pair of boyfriends (at different times) and neither worked out. It was just...bad. My shrink knows the details. Most people don't, but he does, and that's all that matters to me at this point.

I'm...I don't even know what I'm doing with someone at this point. Whatever it is, it's nice and it's comforting and it seems like it's working for both of us. I am almost a bit fearful of it, because I don't know what it is.

I...also feel the need for confession, even though I don't think I believe in that stuff. I feel like there are things that I need to admit to before someone else does.

My confession, however, is not meant for anyone at a church.

Hopefully soon. It's all weighing on me a bit.

ais.