June 16, 2015 @ 11:30pm

I have no written in a journal in a long time, no since before I left home back in Ireland. It has been interestin' being here in Hathian, bloody hot as hell, dinna know how people put up with the heat.

The worst and best part has tah be a cop I met. Me brother Fynn would be laughin' his arse off at me right now if he knew. Cops are always bad new an I knew that. The bloody bastard so demanding and arrogant and egotistical and pushy and dominating and somethin' about him made me no want tah care. He would touch me and light me on fire and even now when I think about him, even as mad as I am and wanna hate him for the things he's said, I kin no help squirm in me seat as heat flushes through my body.

I gave him what only one would ever be able tah have. Foolish, but what was I savin' it for? And even as much of an asshole as he is, it was amazin'. He made me scream and I pretty sure these thin walls hid nothin' from me neighbors.

He's given me a sense of curiosity I know could easily get me in trouble, but the way it makes me feel says it may be wroth the risk. The way he took control every time, the way he would touch me and make me cum in situations that I never should have been in, even now I kin no help feeling my panties grow damp.

But he is such an asshole and mean and acts like he owns me. He makes me feel so good when we're alone, but if anyone else is around, he makes me feel like a cheap whore worth nothing and I want to hit him and cry. Perhaps it's me age or teh fact I dinna have much experiences with boys but I thought he liked me. Now I wonder if all he liked was my virginity.

Bloody hell.

I miss me mum, I miss her yellin' at me for doin' somethin' stupid. Did love makin' her angry, was fun. But I always knew she loved me. Me dad would just stand behind her and smirk like we was sharin' a secret. I miss them, they be so far away right now. And me siblings, was more fun tah get intah trouble when I was no doin' it alone.

Got intah trouble the other night, with Tori Yamato I think her name be? And Kaidn Zero. Was fun until I was jokin' around and tried tah get a reaction outtah Ken tah show he was bein' a dingleberry. Ah well. Least the fun was fun while we was havin' it.

Need tah go take a shower, too bloody hot in me apartment. I need a fan. I need an A/C!