After the cops left I said fuck it and drew a nice warm bath, submerging myself in the water with my robe on. Don't ask why...I just did. After all these years, the torment, the cat-n-mouse game and blondie turned out to be my unstable HALF brother. I know what you're thinking...WTF?! Yup. That's exactly how I reacted too. I vomited twice after reading the proof...His birth certificate and the letter my mother wrote to Bud...Troy's father about the pregnacy and not loving him anymore. They were never married....they just had a stupid fling..hit it and quit it type of thing..pffft. I guess I could understand why Troy was so angry...for one his HALF sister..who was younger..was kinda hot....his dad was an asshole and well..he didnt grow up with a mother.But seriously, taking shit out on me..when I didn't even know the whole story? Fuck me running....

Gets out of the tub now, robe dripping wet. She makes a brief phonecall, to get her dog back from a gracious neighbor..she hangs up and continues writing

The mess is everywhere downstairs in the livingroom..the blood stains I mean...gonna have to make another phonecall to get a cleaning crew out here...fuck what would I say? (shrugs) Anyway, I'm not dead..at least not yet..guess I'll be saying that for awhile..not sure who else is pissed at me. If there are..I'm sure its for some dumb reason that I haven't been told yet.(Pauses) Fuck, someone's at the door..and I think I can hear Zane barking. I'm glad Troy didn't do any serious damage to him. I gotta go through the letters and stuff I found in that rusty...dusty ass trunk...ugh. Once I read through them...I'll let you know what I find...ok journal? At least you know how to keep your mouth shut..