** Written in a worn, leather-bound book kept on Colin's person at all times. Random thoughts, sometimes rambling, sometimes succinct**

I've been neglecting this since I got dropped in Hathian.... this... retrospection and introspection... I guess I've been riding the wave of excitement I've felt... getting to town and being simultaneously repulsed and attracted to its grit, its violence, its... what word am I looking for... its LIFE! Hathian is so visually stimulating! The buildings, the people...

NOTE 2 SELF: don't forget! find a spot to hold photo show in the future!!!

girl just walked by, thought it was Lex, of course I'm wrong... met her here in the Grind... God I'm an idiot... can't believe I caught a crush on a 19 year old then she tells me she has a boyfriend while at the party she invited me to! Don't wanna think about her, but I can't stop!

NOTE 2 SELF: She's taking your class, dummy, keep it in check.

I'm a fucking teacher! ha ha ha fucking ha. Fuck YOU dad, I'm NOT just a janitor! Don't fuck this job up, dude... you need money...

who do I have to fuck to find someone with some hallucinogenics in Hathian! I wanna see the city through a different set of eyes... acid preferred, fungus OK... might even settle for cough syrup soon. a city full of junkies and not a fucking hippie in sight. sorry about my luck.

glad there's always someplace open for me to find a corner to sleep in... no friends to crash with yet. neck hurts.