Saturday , March 29th 2008

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My Doc told me I should start keeping a journal to help with my anger problem lets see how this goes ill start by filling you in on my past

My life in this hell hole I call home never gets any more easy, I try to keep my family and friends alive, putting my self in harms way more than I really like to. Its a strange Existence I used to never care for anyone, cold ruthless, savage at the best of times, I was as crow as a crow could be, making my living by striking fear in the hearts others. Oh how this has all changed so fast, it seems like my brain has been reworked, by the soft touch of a women, the sound of a child, and the friends that have been there for me in the worst of times. This new way of life started some time after joining the crows I met one Lanie Sosa, a strange women, she always seem to have a death wish, I remember it like it was yesterday, starting fights with me in the middle of the titty twister that day I thought of her as such a stupid bitch its amazing how friends ships start aint it. That day was the day I started to change, I found my self in a bind over pressing odds and out of the blue she showed up and bailed me out, it was something, and I had stabbed her only earlier before I guess she detent get the point of leave me the fuck alone.
Soon after meeting Lanie , another strange girl showed up in the city, Di Rau the girl that would eventually steal my heart, and I think some of my money along the way but that's another story. There was something about this one she didn't fear me like the others, she was brave its kinda odd how things change with a single snow ball and the cops trying to haul her in for there own brand of questing, I was inclined to help her , threatening the cop and pushing him into a wall both so to speak and literally, our friend-ship soon grew into a young love, her protecting me from my enemy's telling me what she heard around the Den, a few years later, Di told me she was pregnant and we had our first child Lilly Perun. We decided it was time to get married and so we did, and here we sit now, her a Rejects and me an X Crow and X Rejects. but again I jump ahead of my self, tho most know the story of how I rose and fell with in these two gangs.
There was one other, a small child who was dear to me as well, Saorii I met her early in my crow days, I had always had a soft spot for the children of the den growing up there my self from a young age. I took her under my wing as did Lanie, we helped raise her. Sure I would like to say I had everything to do with the way she turned out now, but that would be a lie, it was this child that made my downfall from the crows and my rise to what I am now. My best friend Morder Crow, threatened to kill this child and at that point is were I made my decision fending off Morder so she could escape. This child looked up to me, and I really seen her as another daughter family, I protected her trained her taught her how to defend much like I do now. When I almost went over the edge this child was there to bring me back, talking me down literately from the edge its amazing what a child can do to a cold long dead soul. Saorii turned into one of my best friends, and I sill watch out for her today.
To be honest I would die for my friends and family, most such as Will Calmentine and other narcissistic fellows in Hathian would think this was weakness, me I see it as my greatest strength driving me to do what I need to do to get things done and always having some one to back me up. Now these days Iv got a few things plotting around my head, Revenge on the PD for the death of my dear friend Lanie Sosa, as soon as her killer sufeses again, And also the Down fall of one Will Clementine, no one dares stand up to this man, me I'm inclined to keep at bay, him having my wife under his control and thus my family in his grasp, Soon I shall find my opening my loop were I can finally attack but until then I sit and plot and it shall only be a short amount of time before I can act, on all those that oppose my vision for this great City.

I think that is enough for now to write, I shall write more, daily or weekly about my life in this City, and if a day comes that my writing stops, look to the graveyard that's were you will find me or acleast what's left