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So this is it huh?

Its been so fucking long I cant even remember where i last left off. Too much shit has happened yet nothings happened. Its all the same, always the same nothing usually changes and when i think it does, wham. Its fucking the same again. Kenny and I...no more. Zh cant even remember who I am. I was kidnapped for some random shit. Actually to keep me away from the one person i...oh what the fuck. I cant talk to people about it and I cant even write it down. what the hell is wrong with me. I have to say something or my god damn heads going to implode. Alright lets attempt shall we?

...so after I got back to town after kenny i found my sister. Well then there was the most amazing car, ever. Mustang, you know how i am with Mustangs. Well yes this was no change. The owner, doolin, or Dooby from what everyone calls him. Ang warned me. Jackson and Q warned me. Thats why they kidnapped me. I know what he is and how he is with women but for some strange reason, i cant get away. Hes like some sort of fucking magnet that pulls me back. I treat him like shit and he still comes back. Ive never seen anything like it actually. Hes been around me for god...months now i cant even keep track. Yet hes been with Kayla. Yeah i guess im her aunt or something like that. I dont know. Im related to a bunch of people, its hard to keep track sometimes.

Little said ive resisted as long as i can. I guess were dating now. Or something. I just i dont know. I dont trust him farther then i can throw. Hes got the history of never being faithful hell he was going after me when he was with Kayla forever. They broke up now but im wondering for how long exactly. Everyone seems to think im a Blood because of it too, constant tauntings about him and Bloods. Funny, im not even anywhere close to being a blood and ive never fucked him. I refused Bloods multiple times, no way. Speaking of gangs, Rejects are coming back finally. My mom started speaking to me again. never again am i going to fuck that up. Now that ive got it back im determined to make her proud and that means no fucked up gangs like cerbs and Kerebos before. Cant be a cop like dad, hah yeah right me a cop. That would be fitting...in a parallel universe.

So ultimetly i dont know what the fuck im doing. Im trying to keep dooby at an arms length away but its getting harder. He might have a way with words or something but i enjoy spending time with him. He almost makes me feel like Kenny used to, and Aulay, Dom, Zh, Austin, and however man there were along with them. Those are just the most apparent to me. Just...mother fuck i hate thinking. I need to get to bed. Hes sleeping next to me anyways. Cant keep fucking around on my phone or he will wonder if im looking up Porn. Oh Porn thats a good idea....

Till next Fuck,
Else